looking down

For me I feel like I spend a lot of time looking down. Sometimes physically and sometimes just with my outlook on things. I spend a lot of time <just like anyone else> looking down at my phone to make sure I am not missing out on something on one of the million different social media apps I use. I appreciate modern technology a lot but the week I spend at camp every summer when they take our phones is such a blessing. No one tries to get a hold of you and you don't have to worry about checking in with anyone because they know where you are. It's a truly brilliant plan on the camps part. You spend a lot more time in the moment and I think that's why some of my favorite memories are from camp.

I am always one that has struggled with self-confidence/esteem. Whether if it's when I am getting dressed in the morning, on the beach or anytime a good portion of my stomach is exposed I can't help but staring down at it. Sometimes I wish it would just shrink itself but I know it takes a lot of hard work and dedication for this to happen. <reference to the time I dropped 30 lbs> It's times like this when I was I could see how I truly look from someone else's perspective. We all view ourselves differently than how other people are seeing us. This goes hand-and-hand with the love/hate <mainly hate> relationship with the scale hiding currently in the closet of my bathroom. It's an evil demon that should rarely be released.

Me when I get the scale out

 

Other times I forget to count my many blessings. I have a lot to be thankful for. I live a comfortable life due to my amazing parents who support me in many ways. In life it's hard to not look down on certain situations. Negativity comes easily to me. That's just the way I have always been. I think it's because I have high expectations of other people and I've learned this probably isn't the best way to go about it. People let you down. It happens. Move on and get over it people! <Tough love>

I am her <Leslie Knope// Amy Poehler>

There's so much more to be happy about then relying on someone else to fulfill you. Happiness comes from within. It's very much so an internal thing. As I get older I believe that I am slowly learning that it is waste of energy and my time to be so darn negative. There's too much beauty in every situation rather than getting yourself hung up on the one little part of it.

for the love of babies part II.

Well...I just couldnt seem to find the time yesterday to post what I wanted to say about my weekend.

After going to the doctor and getting two shots, one in each leg... I made a really bad decision. I went to the gym... Now I bet youre asking...who goes to the gym after getting shots? This girl apparently does. I asked my doctor and his nurses if I would be okay to go and they reassured me that I would be. I def wanted to go to the gym after according to my height, weight, and age I have found myself at the top of the chart & borderline overweight. I was stunned...oh well. Im working on letting that go...but really what girl wants to hear that kind of news?

Later in the evening I went to McAllisters with my girlies!! Yum Yum. Then of course we had to stop by graeters!! If you have never had it you are missing out! Then Kendrick picked me up and we spent our night watching the Kardashians. I know, yuck. I just cant seem to get away from them.

I also did a lot of good scripture reading last night and I would love to share those verses with you!

Anyways... Im super excited to get my hair/eyebrows done tonight! It is much needed! Pictures to come.

xoxo, God Bless
-A